♥ Crusher's Club II ♥

I miss him. A lot...

I'm sorry.

In a way, it's really sweet that you get all nervous talking to him. It's like James in our RP. xD But really you should! Trust me, it will be worth it.

Omg so how'd he take it, Eileen?

Yeah, I'm in agreement with you both. I'm not sure what you should do.

He hasn't responded... Or even come online. I told him via (LOL! I love saying via) an email.

I don't know if you know this, Nadine, but I actually based James off of Laurence, somewhat. (I reckon Eileen could guess, because of the name...) But it's kinda sweet, because we both get all awkward, and don't know what to say, so there's a lot of stammering, but my mind gets into overdrive, and I can't think...

I wouldn't be surprised if he had guessed, but I'm interested to see how he responds.

Yeah, I figured.

Yeah, neither would I. I mean, I asked him to dance, twice, well, three times actually, he only said yes twice, hugged him three times in total, and asked him out in the last two months. Can I really be that obvious? I really want to see how he responds...

I mean, it's sorta obvious if you actually know him, but otherwise, I try to keep James as his own person. Hehe, he is sweet though...

No, you're not obvious at all. You're just as bad as me. But, you know, it's all good.

Yeah.

Yeah, it's fine. I just want to see how he reacts.

Yeah, Lauren, I figured he was based off of Laurence, from the descriptions you've given me of him. & Aww, that is sooo sweet. I know what you mean. Today Brandon was over and we were sitting on the couch kissing so much that when we stopped my head was legit spinning. Kissing is a sort of wonderfully mind-numbing thing.

Oh, I see. Well, I'm curious too. Hhahaa, it's sort of hard not to be obvious. As you get older it gets to be better to be obvious and flirty.

Aw, wow. That's sweet though. Wow...

Yeah, I know. Okay.

Yeahh...Hehe, that's cute, and sorta awkward at the same time...

I'm interested to see his spaz too.

Yeah, it is... I sorta don't know how to respond to that...

Yes, me too. I'm really interested. I hope he doesn't spazz to bad...

Ahaah, why awkward?

Lol

I can't say I know... So I'm not totally sure why I said that now that I think about it.

Hehe, wow.

Lol

Hehe.

Guys, I have MAJOR news.

I can't believe I didn't tell you earlier. I didn't think of it, I guess.
Well. Um. Me and Brandon broke up. Actually, I broke up with him. Because I'm in love with my best friend. AJ. And he loves me too. And I've been trying to stop myself from having feelings for AJ but on Saturday he told me he loved me and I just couldn't take it anymore and I knew I had to break up with Brandon. And I was going to do it today in person when we hung out after graduation but then somehow this kid Joe found out and told Brandon yesterday and Brandon asked me about it so I had to break up with him OVER THE FUCKING PHONE. It was so hard to listen to him cry. I already felt like the most horrendous person in the world but it just made me feel ten million times worse. And just ugh. I feel so bad. But now it's all over and it's summer after graduation today so I can just try to block all this drama and shit out of my mind and focus on having a good summer with AJ and the rest of my friends..

You broke up with Brandon. Wow.... When did this happen? I mean, not the breaking up thing. Falling in love with AJ? We've heard nothing about him. I'm sorry. *Pats on shoulder* I'm sorry you had to do that. I hate listening to boys cry, 'cause there's nothing you can do about it most of the time, because they won't tell you why. I'm sorry, and I hope you have a summer with your friends and AJ. Are you going to see Brandon at all?

For the past two months AJ has been my best friend, and for the past month and a half I've been liking him more and more each day, and for the past two weeks I've been in love with him. I tried to stop myself but after Saturday I couldn't.
I know I never told you about him, because I assume I would be able to stay with Brandon but I just couldn't take it anymore.
I think the worst thing about seeing boys cry is that they always seem so strong....
I want to still be friends with Brandon but it's going to be hard because when he started being my boyfriend, he stopped being my best friend. He hasn't been an actual friend to me for over a year.. It's going to be really difficult.

Oh, I see. Well, I at least hope you're happy with him.
I know, they build up these fortresses. Showing no one around them the insides, but one little mistake in the foundation and the whole thing comes tumbling down, and they can't handle it. They want to appear like their wall never fell down, but sometimes it's just impossible. That's when they cry.
Oh, I'm sorry. That has to be hard. *Offers shoulder*

Whoa, that one was deep, dude. O.o

Regarding you, Nadine, I'm not completely sure if I should be sorry, or not... I can relate to falling for a best friend, and sort of having to "break up" with someone who wasn't, really... But best of luck to you and AJ...

Oh, thanks....

Yeah... I can't. But, yes, best of luck.

Eileen -- that was really deep. Wow.

Thanks.

Oh, thank you. But, as Lauren pointed out to me later, there are three types of guys:
1) The guys who show all there emotions, and can't hide them if they tried.
2) The guys who show nothing. Hide all their emotions, nothing gets though.
3) The middle guys, who, some show, and some don't.
My wall thing was for type 2 (Lauren.... xD)

You're welcome.